My whole life ive never felt like I belonged anywhere.Ive never know who was I was.Throughout my short my life I always waited for something better to come along without being satisfied with how my life was.At this moment I am watching Eat Pray Love and it has awakened me.A quote that I absolutely love is “if you cant control your thoughts,your screwed.” Now I dont know how ,but it seems my thoughts have taken over my brain.If the human brain has a million thoughts a day, about 500,000 of my thought are the same things over and over again.

I need to find what makes me happy .I know im 18 and life has begone for me, but I think this the perfect time to explore.I dont want to be like Julie Roberts who had the life sucked out of her.I just want to find peace within myself is all.I what to meet new people and try new foods ,which are two of my favorite things,.M whole life I have always settled for whatever glimpse of happiness that ever came my way.Even if the good outweighed the bad.Im tired of holding on to the past.But its hard to let go when you live in the same town.The people who have hurt me,their face haunts me ,every time I see them I freeze and my mind rewinds back .I remember all the bad things.So I have promised self that in two years I will take a year off from school and travel around europe.Its time to find myself. <3